When Plans Fall Apart and Two Methods of Coping

We've all felt it.


That familiar slump of sadness, defeat, and discouragement when plans fall apart. From a simple afternoon commitment to which you'd been looking forward to the life you'd envisioned with someone you love disintegrating and anything in between... it hurts. I had a humbling example of the feeling occur this week as I prepared for our upcoming Heal & Rise Women's Retreat.


I was giddy to bring another group of beautiful souls to Galena, Illinois. This historic and beautiful town overlooking the Mississippi River is close to my heart, as the energy is both fresh and new while also holding the wisdom of many centuries. The naturescape takes your breath away, and this was the place I gathered with my first group of open-hearted women for a weekend retreat. Knowing this would be a wonderful experience, I neglected marketing and sharing about it as much as I'd done with prior retreats in favor of jumping right into the excitement of the planning stage.


When only a few women were able to commit and a couple needed to pull back from the commitment in order to prioritize their families, I discovered something that saddened me. I was going to have to cancel our reservation at the beautiful farmhouse overlooking the vineyard and postpone this retreat. There it was. That all too familiar feeling.


Failure.



Yet within this feeling of failure, there was another feeling hiding under the surface. I was slightly relieved. You see, I had two sick kiddos at home (one of which enduring the painful experience of teething) and I had no idea how my mama heart could leave them unwell if they were not yet feeling fully healed. Perhaps this occurred so I could fulfill multiple sides of my purpose... caring for my littles and being fully present with them in their time of need, and also planning an even more aligned and soul-healing retreat for after the holidays. Perhaps this time frame would allow for more women to enjoy the community of one another's support and the incredible women who had hoped to attend would be able to take part. Perhaps in the meantime I could write some more guidebooks and record some meditations for my new Heal & Rise Library.